to walk or not to walk

Its been a busy week for me! new semester, so many things to be done. New subjects. Oh ya, new lecturer as well. So excited to cocomplete my bachelor programs and misery and so-called book worm life will end! (oh. Day dreaming) pheww. So many thngs bother me lately and i just dunno hw to react. I feel so bad when i know those obstacles that hit me real bad will definately turn my life into 360 degrees. Its a total change and i might have some problem in adapting it.

How i wish i could still hold on to myself and make myself comfortable with the changes. I know i can do ir. But i need to keep on motivating myself that i will survive. The option to walk or just stay and wait for miracles to exist are choices that will totally change my life. Forever. But i still believe, there will always be shine after the rain. Insya Allah.



Love,
sha.

To whom it may CONCERN

Helooo stalker. Whoever u are, u knw who u are.

Btw this blog is officially mine. So sukati aku lah nk ngkah gmba aku kedak pondan ka, kedak asuk ka, kedak babi ka. Like i care ? Kau ya sebenarnya PATHETIC.
Nganok muka urg kedak pondan, so lok muka kau. Kacak bena sik muka kau tek ?
omgg. Fes time aku dpt komen bodoh dari org kdk tok. nang ank sapa lah ya. Kesian eh. Sooo pathetic.
Mcm asuk melalak2.

Sorry, no dogs allowed to bark at my blog. with all those nonsense comments.
Muka aku x kacak, jadi apa masalah kau ? aee. Aku tek mintak duit kau kah ? kesiann. nang xda keja.
Oklah, mun muka aku kdk pondan, well at least aku rempuan. aku bukan PONDAN.
or else, sbenanya kau yg PONDAN ?

haha. retarded abis lah manusia bangsa dengki tok. haha

a sinner

A sinner wilk always be a sinner.

Forgiveness will never be accepted :-)

#LaTahzan 1

*Ganti itu dari Allah.

Allah tdk pernah mencabut sesuatu dari Anda kecuali dia menggantikan dgn yg lebih baik. Tetapi. Itu trjdi apabila Anda brsabar dan tetap redha dgn ketentuanNya.

Betapapun, kita harus melihat dan yakin bahawa di sebalik musibah terganti balasan dari Allah yg beujung pada kebaikan kita.







Love, sha.

La Tahzan

#shashasyedyusuf is currently reading "La Tahzan"

i once read this book before. but due to my unorganized timetable and student life made me forget the existence of dis book ! Well i guess this is the best book to motivate ur soul and life. well a good motivator for me as well. Life was hard and cruel to me lately. I need something to keep me awake and to keep on walking and never stop believing. Have faith in Allah.

La Tahzan is an Arabic terms in which referring to this term, "Jangan Bersedih Lagi".

Subhanallah. I was amazed with the writing and how well the author had actually made me realized of some things that I never thought before.

Thank you Allah for the wonderful gift. I will keep on reading this book and will make sure that it will be the most powerful medicine to cure this misery.

oh u should also consider yourself reading this book and trust me, no regret.

And I would also like to Thank Allah for the wonderful life. Even it wasnt that wonderful like others, but I will always accept Qada' and Qadar.

Ya Allah, jika ini yg tersurat di dalam kitab hidupku.. Bantulah aku untuk menerima semua ketentuanMu dengan redha dan ikhlas. Jauhkan aku dari kesedihan yg berpanjangan. Karuniakan aku kebahagiaan di dunia dan di akhirat.

Sekiranya ada yang ingin kau suratkan padaku, maka bimbinglah aku ke jlnMu Ya Allah,

aku bermohon kpdmu...

La Tahzan ya Sha.

Insya Allah.

Love,

Sha

Bapak

I always call him 'Bapak'.

He's the reason why I cried a lot during this special day.

I miss him.

I miss the old him.

I miss the time when we used to spend our time together.

I miss my Raya to be celebrated in a happiest moment in our family..

I miss it..

And I knw, it will never exsit.

No more...

Life, get used to it

we love,

we cry,

we smile,

we shout out for joy and happiness.

That's life.

We made mistakes, we seek for forgiveness.

People threw us away, we just can smile.

That's life.

We talks about our past, but indeed it will never ever able to return again.

We gone mad with our silly mistakes, but we wont be able to fix it again.

That's life.

it has ups and downs.

still, karma exist.

That's life.

in fact, we always believe that God created such things, FOR A REASON. that we might not knw.

Be grateful enough, to be the Chosen One :)

That's life.

I am a sinner.

I made mistakes.

I seek for forgiveness.

But Allah always knows the best.

Love,

Sha

Munajat Syawal

Salam Eid Fitr to all Moeslem :)

Its been a while since I didnt update this little diary of mine. So many things to be done. So many things to be prepared due to Eid Fitr.

Alhamdulillah, we meet again Eid Fitr :)

Just drop by to share something that almost broke my heart during this special day.. Nothing much but a little story of myself..

Woke up and I felt empty today. I admit that I wasnt that excited with this occasion but still, i feel grateful cos i am able to celebrate it with my 'family'.

I miss those moments when I used to love Eid Fitr as much as I do love my birthday,. nw it seems different. I took it the other way round as Im not looking forward for this special day. I know, this isnt right,. But I have reason for doing so.

When i look around, those smile and happiness in celebrating Hari Raya made me feel lost and I found myself crying in the middle of the crowd.. its kinda weird when i cant described my feelings that moment. unexplained.

i was forcing myself to smile, to enjoy and to make myself be in the crowd,. But still. I cant find happiness inside it. All i feel is misery. and i wanted to cry so much.

Ya Allah, aku bermohon kepadaMu. Seandainya hari ini adalah hari yang paling indah, maka kau karuniakan kpd ku kebahagiaan. Biarkan aku mengecapi kebahagiaan ini walau untuk sementara, kerana aku tidak ingin terus berlagu di dlm kesedihan ini.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku bersyukur atas semua yg telah kau berikan. Aku pasrah dan redha dlm menempuhi semua dugaanMu. Namun kau berikanlah aku kekuatan. Kembalikan sinar kegembiraan dlm hidupku biarpun cuma seketika..

Ya Allah, kembalikan sinar kebahagiaan yg pernah kau berikan dahulu., kau berikan aku keluarga yg harmoni. dan jgn pernah kau pisahkan kami sedarah daging.

Sekiranya ini yg kau suratkan pdku, maka aku ikhlas utk menghadapinya. Tapi karuniakan aku berjuta kekuatan dan ketabahan hati. Kau lindungilah org yg telah melindungi aku sedari kecil hingga dewasa. Spt mana mereka pernah melindungi aku..

Syawal nan indah, jgn pernah biarkan hari2 ini berlalu pergi dgn titisan air mata kesedihan. Tapi biarkan semuanya diselimuti kebahagiaan.,.

kau berikan lah sinar kpd keluarga ku, kau berikan seribu dan sejuta kemaafan supaya kami bisa bersatu.

Aku tidak perlu cinta serta kasih syg dari org lain, melainkan cinta dari darah dagingku.

Karna cinta itu, cinta yg sempurna..

Salam Aidil Fitri, tulus ikhlas dari hati yg hina..

Amin.

2 Syawal, 1432 H.

Love,

Sha